Disturbed - "I'm Alive"

Never again will I be dishonored
And never again will I be reminded
Of living within the world of the jaded
They kill inspiration
It's my obligation
To never again, allow this to happen
Where do I begin?
The choices are endless
Denying the sin
My art, my redemption
I carry the torch of my fathers before me

The thing I treasure most in life cannot be taken away
There will never be a reason why I will surrender to your advice
To change myself, I'd rather die
Though they will not understand
I won't make the greatest sacrifice
You can't predict where the outcome lies
You'll never take me alive
I'm alive
I'm alive
I'm alive

Change, again, cannot be considered
I rage again, dispelling my anger
Where do I begin?
The choices are endless
My art, my redemption, my only salvation
I carry the gift that I have been blessed with
My soul is adrift in oceans of madness
Repairing the rift that you have created
I am not alone, brothers, give me your arms now

The thing I treasure most in life cannot be taken away
There will never be a reason why I will surrender to your advice
To change myself, I'd rather die
Though they will not understand
I won't make the greatest sacrifice
You can't predict where the outcome lies
You'll never take me alive

I'm no slave
Are you feeling brave?
Or have you gone out of your mind?
No more games
It won't feel the same
If I hold my anger inside
There's no meaning
My soul is bleeding
I've had enough of your kind
One suggestion
Use your discretion
Before you label me blind

The thing I treasure most in life cannot be taken away
There will never be a reason why I will surrender to your advice
To change myself, I'd rather die
Though they will not understand
I won't make the greatest sacrifice
You can't predict where the outcome lies
You'll never take me alive
I'm alive
I'm alive
I'm alive
I'm alive
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I got into a rather serious fight with Omega's mother on Sunday. For three hours I tried to civilly inform her of the concepts important for getting along with me. Concepts that damn near everyone can get a grasp on, like, "ask questions if you want to learn about me," as well as, "don't assume my primary goal is sex." Unfortunately, three hours is a long time to repeat the same thing to someone who understands it less and less each time, and my patience wore quite thin. I told her repeatedly to just go away if she didn't want me to get pissed off, but she just couldn't handle that. So, she stuck around for two more hours until 5 in the morning as I tried to convince her to shut the fuck up, all the while complaining about how tired she was. She's lucky I normally fight with people who are blatantly opposed to my logic, not just completely clueless, or else I'd have really gone off on her.

While I tried to explain to her that assumptions were bad, she went on quite a bit about how perceptive and insightful she is, and how tight-knit their family is, and how Omega would never lie to her, and everything is just so fucking peachy everyone's farting rainbows, and I'm going to upset that delicate balance by not "behaving." Over and over again I had to listen to, "Oh, she's not going to be happy about this. This is going to upset her a lot."

Obviously, Omega's not completely happy with the fact I exploded at her mother. However, I happen to have on good authority that she laughed at my remarks and thinks it's really sexy that I hit someone with a wall of logic; the same type of logic, mind you, that I've used to get people banned from DA en masse. Apparently it works on drama-loving teens, and adults who wish they were.

I trusted that Omega would see where I was coming from, but I didn't dare to think she'd take it so well. I didn't even have to apologize. I may have been wrong to trust her mother, but I was completely accurate in my decision to trust her. Now I know that I truly will not have to deal with illogical parents, because she can actually handle these situations.

I have an unbelievable loathing of people making assumptions about me, because other people's mistakes are always coming back to haunt me, day in and day out. I hate it even more when the assumptions at hand are the greatest possible insult. However, it seems that in this case, this person's incredible stupidity has been counteracted by Omega's immense intelligence. And as long as this isn't going to hurt either of us, fuck, that bitch can think whatever she wants about me. She can think I'm a sweet transvestite from Transsexual Transylvania for all I care. Not only will I not change myself to make her happy, but now I don't even have to correct her errors. She's more than welcome to sit around in her fantasy world - how ironic that I thought I was the one with delusions of grandeur.

Of course, naturally I'd be willing to continue any dispute if she wishes to confront me directly and leave Omega out of it. My logic cannon's got unlimited ammo!

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Now, go forth and visit these people:
My best friend. Visit him. But not more than you visit me.
A wise old man... without the old man part

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